It's getting closer and closer...
Graduation is less than 2 weeks away. I have so much going on in the next 2 weeks its not even funny. I thought graduation was supposed to be a fun, happy, STRESS-FREE time. NOT!!! I guess totally wrong. I have my Senior Awards ceremony tomorrow morning at 10. This is when all of the different scholarships are persented, all of the special Senior awards are given, and when all the Seniors get to march in for the first time in Cap and Gown in front of out parents. I might be getting a scholarship tomorrow. The band that I am in is giving away a scholarship to any Senior that applied and I did. There were only 5 of us that applied, so my chances of getting are pretty good. Then, I start with exams on Wednesday through Monday. Then, between that, I have 2 party things at my church for me. I have one on Saturday that is an informal gathering of some of my friends. Then, Sunday, all the Seniors of the church wear their cap and gown and march in, give a little speech about themselves and what they plan on doing after graduation, and then after that, there is a pot-luck luchoen where people get to give ME gifts! lol...I like that part of the day. And sometime this week, I have to get my sister and her kids from a place 2 hours from here. ACK! I can't wait to see her, but DANG! I didn't expect to have to go get her. lol...Oh, well, her husband can't help his job situation.Then, on top of ALL of that, I have to find some time to do my Shakespeareian project and plan my graduation party for the day after graduation. I can't wait til it's all over so I can just stop and breathe. It seems like I haven't been able to breathe for the past 2 months...and I still have 2 weeks before I can. ACK!
And my dad isn't helping matters any. He is really unhappy with his job right now and he is in a reall crappy mood and when he's in a crappy mood, so is everyone else. He's trying to look for another job, but he just doesn't know what he want to do. I think that if he were to just "shut up" for just 5 seconds and listen to God, then he would know exactly what to do. Whenever I don't know what I need to do, I just take 5 seconds (not literally) to breathe and listen to what God is telling me to do. I know that is so much easier to say than do, but GEEZ! I just wish he would stop being such a grumpy butt. He is saying one thing and acting another. He says that he wants to spend more time with me and mom, but he's not. For the past week or so, when I get home, he's not here, he's gone with mom riding the Goldwing (Honda motocycle for those of you that didn't know that). Yes, I understand that it's nice weather for riding, but stop saying that you want a different job b/c you want to spend more time with me, and then when you are home, you act like I'm not even around. He is leaving again for 2 months June 15 or so. That means that he won't even be home for 2 months. Well, since he's not going to be home for very long, he should be spending time with me like he says he wants to. He acts like he wants me out of the house...NOW!!! I know that isn't true, but he's just not acting normal. Mom says that is just a combination of me graduating and his job...but I need for them to be here for me, not the other way around right now. And I can't talk to mom about it, well, I can, but I don't want to worry her anymore than Dad is already doing. She has even came to me and talked to me about some of the things that dad is thinking about doing with his career, and she usually doesn't do that. I'm here for her and she knows that, and she there for me, but I just don't want to dump all of this on my mom right now. It's bad enough that her baby girl is about to graduate, but then all the crap with dad. I just can't do that to her.
Well, I think I have sufficiently vented for the moment. I will probably be back on later to continue b/c I am no where near being finished with this. lol...I haven't gotten to what he thinks about my college situation. Tootles
*~*God Bless*~*
P.S. Please keep my family in your prayers, we really need it right now. Thank you!
posted by *~*HollyMarie*~* @ 1:45 PM
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