Madness!!
I'm so mad at myself right now. I am in charge of writing the drill for my aunt's band. Ok, not a big deal, right? NOT!! I stayed up until about 3 last night and I only got about 3 pages of drill written. Well, then I have spent ALL DAY today working on it as well and I have about5 pages total so far. An average show has about 30 pages. I am seeing A LOT of things with this music, but I just can't do any of it b/c the numbers are so small. It's horrid. I have about 25...TOTAL!! That is including guard, hornline, AND drumline. It's so ridiculous. I know that the numbers aren't the worst out there, but they sure aren't the best. I just wish that I had more experiene with writing drill that way I could actually put my ideas on paper, and make it work. I have so many ideas, but it's just that what I'm seeing takes at least 30 people, and I don't have 30 people.Enough about that. My days are getting a lil' bit better, but not much though. Things with Stacey are getting better, in my opinion. We are talking daily, but it's still so hard for me to be around him and act happy, unless I just imagine that things are like they used to be. I just miss the nights that we spent talking or the nights that we spent watching movies until 2 in the morning and talking, or the night that we watched "Me and Will" ( hehe...a moment that Stacey and I will NEER forget). I just want to lay in his arms and have him hold me. I just wish I knew what I did wrong that way I know not to do it again and fix it. I guess I just wish, most of all, that things would go back to the way that they used to be.
Well, I'm beat. I have drill to write and things to think about, plus my fav cuz, La, just walked in the door from work.
*~*God Bless*~*
posted by *~*HollyMarie*~* @ 9:45 PM
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