I can only go up from here....
Well...I've been having a bad week. I usually have a bad week the week after I get back from Pound. I've been so down, so low, so that means that I can go up from here. I honestly don't see how things could get any lower for me. But then again, everytime I say that, it always gets worse.I got to talk to Stacey the other night for a LONG time. He was pretty upset. We were talking on the phone and hadn't been on there not even 10 minutes and his sister, who doesn't live there anymore, comes in and says that she needs the phone, after she's already been on there for 3 hours. Well, Stacey told her that she could wait til we got off the phone, and she didn't like that. So, she went and got their dad and he mad him get off the phone. So, he walked over to his brother's house and I called him there. He was so upset and pissed off. He said that he was tired of living his life as a fake and living for other people, when he just wants to live his life for himself. He started crying and that was the first time that I have heard him cry and it just broke my heart to hear him so upset and I wasn't there to be with him.
Today marks the 2 week period until I get to see Stacey again. YAY! I will get to spend an ENTIRE week with him. I love him so much. It's amazing how much our relationship has grown and how close we are. I never thought that I could be so close and connected to someone!!!! It just amazes me. I thank God everyday for putting Stacey in my life b/c I don't know where we both would be if it weren't for each other.
Well, I'm gonna go . I'm gonna try to get some sleep before I go to class!
*~*Holly*~*
posted by *~*HollyMarie*~* @ 8:40 AM
2 Comments:
Hello. :-) I found you through Letti and wanted to say hi. I hope you find what God has planned for you. I went through some of that a few years ago, but I went with something unexpected and it has worked out. God Luck!!!
that's why I was sooo glad to be out of the house and at the uni, because that was the time when i was able to be myself for me, and not be what someone thinks i could be. I had never had that much personal growth as till i left home.
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