Tuesday, May 31, 2005

*does a lil happy dance*

Actually...*does the biggest happy dance EVER!!!!* hehe...I was at my aunts high school and she had a class 4th block. Well, there was this guy in there named Stacy and OMG! He is so sweet and funny. Laura has to work tonight, so he's supposed to call so can do something tonight while she's at work. hehe.....He is so adorable. I can't wait for him to call. I feel like a lil' school girl that you see on t.v. that stands by the phone for hours waiting for the call. lol...

Well, I think I am gonna bounce outta here and see if La knows Stacy's number so I can maybe call him before he calls me. lol...I'm so freakin impatient. Tootles!!!

I'm on V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N!!!!!

YAY!!!! I am so glad that I am not home! I'm on vacation. I was in West Virginia, but right now, I am sitting in my aunt's band room in Virginia. I decided that since I might not be able to spend much more time with her this summer since I am going to Texas, that it might be nice to spend some time with her and Laura, my cuz.

OMG!!! I was helping my cousin move her stuff back into her parents house for the summer and she had one of her and her brother's friends come help. HOLY CRAP!! He is so hot! And he is so freakin' funny. We out to eat last night and he even paid for my dinner. How sweet was that!? I really like him. I know that I have only known him for a day or so, but if my aunt and uncle like him, there's nothing in this world wrong with him. He is very simple and not so "to-do," if you know what I mean, he doesn't care about the materialistic things. He has the best wit and one liners from almost anyone that I know. And he's tall, which is a HUGE plus b/c I am not short, I'm about 5'9, and he's WAY over 6 feet, he's probably 6'5 or 6'7.

The bell just rang and my aunt has a class coming in in about 2 minutes. YAY! Laura is supposed to meet us here, but hmm....she's not here yet.

Well, since she's expecting a class, so I'm gonna go! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Saturday, May 28, 2005

WOW!!

It is now official! I am no longer in High School. I graduated last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy, although, surprisingly, I don't feel any different.

After graduation last night we had a party in the cafeteria. We had a lot of fun. It was called Project Graduation and prizes were given away. We had TONS of food and we also had a really cool DJ.

Well, I am starting to get tired and I have to get up and pack bags to leave to go to West Virginia EARLY!! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Thursday, May 26, 2005

This is me back in the fall around October.

I was looking through my pictures from the past couple of years and I found the one above. I think that this is one the best ones. It is from spirit week (Homecoming Week). That week, we were supposed to dress up according to what ever the theme was for that day. This day was blue and gold day b/c it was the day of the football game and blue and gold are my school colors. We also had Cross Dress Day, Impersonator Day, Wacky Tacky Day, and Pajama Day. It was really fun. Ahhh...good times, good times. I'm gonna miss things like from High School. *tear* Things like that is was makes me not want to leave.

Well, I'm gonna go! Tootles!!!

I'm so tired of my parents....

I'm tired of my parents bullshit. I was supposed to go to the movies tonight at 7 or 7:30. Well, Brandy doesn't even get off until 9 now b/c they are keeping her over. Well, I asked mom, out of respect, if I could go at 9:55, which was the next showing. Well, they are both being BITCHES and told me no. Well, dad told me that I could go if I really wanted to go, in not such a nice way, and continued to tell me that I would have to get up on my own in the morning. He seems to think that I will have trouble getting up if I don't get to sleep until 1, but I got to sleep at 1 last night and then got up at 8:30. So, it's not like it's a big deal. Dad told me that I could go if really wanted to, but I'm gonna go and then have to deal with bitchy attitude for the whole day tomorrow. I just find it amazing that I can't go, but my friend Brandy, whose parents are so strict and protecive, can go. DAMN!! Pisses me off!!!! I was trying to be in a good mood, but shit, they had to go fuck it all up. (As you can tell, when I get pissed off, I start to cuss alot.)

Well, I'm gonna go before I say anything else that I might regret. Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Ahhh.....

I'm starting to get excited about graduation. In a little over 24 hours, I will officially be a High School Graduate. YAY!!! Now....the hard part. I have to pick out an outfit for tomorrow night after graduation.

Every year the parents sponsor a party called Project Graduation and it is after the graduation ceremony and lasts until about 12 or 1 in the morning. They give out door prizes, have food, and have a DJ for us to dance.

Well, I went shopping two days ago for a shirt for the party that I am having at my house, but I totally forgot about the one after graduation. ACK!! I have no idea what I am going to wear. I thought about wearing the same shirt Friday and Saturday night, but some of the same people might be at PG and my party. I know that I have a lot of clothes, but I was hoping to wear something new. DANG! Oh, well, maybe my sister will have something that I can wear. hehe....I love having a sister that I can steal clothes from! hehe!

Well, I have an appointment to register for classes on June 7th. I'm starting to get nervous. I'm so ready to start college. Most people my age don't like school at all, but I actually enjoy school. I like learning new things and being in a new environment. I like getting outside of my little comfort zone/box, whatever you shall call it. I like to test myself in those new enviornments to see how I will react to new people. I used to be so out going when I was little, then I went through this stage that I wouldn't even nod my head at someone. But now, I talk to people, and do it with confidence.

Well, Mom will be home shortly with dinner and I have to get ready for a half blind date. hehe...I am going to the movies with my friend and her boyfriend and his friend is going too. YAY!!! Wish me luck! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

*pulls hair out and screams*

Friday cannot come soon enough. I think I have finally figured out why mom and dad have been acting like they have a corn cob stuck up their butt. They told me that once I graduate, I don't have to answer to them. They are probably trying to get in the most bossing and pissing me off in before that night. Grr....

Well, I have decided to not let it bother me. I am going to have fun with my last summer that I don't have to work. I'm not gonna mess with mom and dad anymore. I'm just gonna let it roll off my shoulder and have fun my last summer.

Well, I'm gonna go watch a movie with my sister and bro-in-law! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

I'm so messed up right now...

Well, I don't know what the deal is, but I'm starting to get really tired of my parents. I asked if I could go to the movies tonight with a couple of my friends and they said no. I shouldn't have even asked b/c I technically don't have to b/c they told me that when I turn 18 that I wouldn't have a cerfew, I wouldn't have to ask to go anywhere, and I wouldn't have to tell them where I was going. But out of the kindness of my heart, I have been asking permission for everything and telling them EXACTLY where I'm going and who with. But NO, they still have to be dumb about it. I know I'm probably just overreacting b/c I'm getting really tired of the way they are acting over other stuff, but DAMN!!! I'm just tired of their crap. I just hope that it will all end when I walk across that stage on Friday. And I'm not only catching crap from my 'rents, but my two aunts are being total buttholes. One of them, the one that I don't really even consider and aunt, isn't even making an effort to come here for my graduation. She told me about 2 or 3 months ago that she couldn't come. Actually, she didn't even tell me, my grandma did. How the hell do you know if you can make to it to something 3 months ahead of time?? HUH?? HUH?? She didn't know...she just doesn't wanna come. Then, my other aunt, the one that is a really good aunt...total complete opposite of the other, is acting like she doesn't even wanna come either. She is coming to see me graduate, but that is about it. I'm having a party the day after and she's not even staying for that b/c she has to get back for church on Sunday for some odd reason. I think missing one freakin Sunday for her own neice's graduation party will be ok. If it were my niece and she had something going on like I am, I would make sure that I was there.

Well, I shall stop now. Tootles.

*~*God Bless*~*

ACK!!

Well, practice starts tomorrow. Oh, what fun. NOT!!! I hate the fact that I have to get up and be at school at 10:30 on a day that I am supposed to have off.

Well, I am about to go play DDR. For those of you that don't know what that is, go look it up! It is awesome!

*~*God Bless*~*

Monday, May 23, 2005

I think i'm gonna cry!

I just took my last exam that I will ever take in high school. I got out early b/c I had already taken all of my exams. In a way, I'm glad that it's over, but then again, am I really ready for the next chapter of my life? I know I want to be ready, but am I prepared for it? I just want to know that I am going to be ok and be successful. There are so many decisions that I want to make on my own, but mom and dad have forced their opinion or what they think is best for me on me. I don't want to go to the local community college, I don't even know if I wanna stay here in NC. I want to go live with my sister, but they don't seem to think that that is the best thing to do. I want to live there b/c that is "home" to me and my sister is there. ACK!!! But I'm gonna go to the local community college for the first year that way it gives me a chance to make a concrete decision without mom and dad affecting me. They sorta forced me to do what they wanna do for next year, but they aren't gonna do that to me my Sophomore year in college. This is My life to make mistakes in!

Well, we are about to leave. Keep me in your prayers!

*~*God Bless*~*

Saturday, May 21, 2005

*sigh*

I guess I'm feelin a lil better. No, I'm not completely over what happened, but it's a lil better. Dad at least apologized for what happened, but mom still hasn't, and she prolly won't. I just can't wait til graduation is over and then they will shut the hell up and leave me alone. They are tryin to blame all of the stress on me when I haven't done anything wrong but finished school. Had I known that I was gonna cause all of this "stress" I would have dropped out a long time ago. But at least I will be able to go to college and be able to say that I have a high school diploma and not a GED. I am so tempted to stay with my sister in Texas when I go see her this summer and not come back home. My 'rents are pissing me off so bad. ACK!!!

Well, I'm sittin here with my sister and brother-in-law so I should go. Tootles.

*~*God Bless*~*

ACK!!

I am about to walk out the front door of my house and never come back. My parents are under so much stess and they are blaming it all on me and if that's the case, I'll just walk out and all the stress will be gone. I really don't think that it's all b/c of me, but if I leave, then they can't blame it on me.

Well, that is about all I am going to say about that right now. I have a movie night to go to. Pray for me please!!

*~*God Bless*~*

Thursday, May 19, 2005

2 down, 1 to go...

Well, I took one of my last exams today. Now, I only have 1 left. I have already taken one of my computer classes, my band one, and my English one. Now all I have left is my public speaking/computer class left on Monday....and then I will be done.

I found out today that I am definately walking across that stage!!! I was sorta worried. In the back of my mind I knew that I was graduating, but I didn't wanna just blow it off and then mess everything up. But I made a 95% on my extra credit project and Ms. Perry told me that I will be marching next Friday and getting my diploma!! HALLELUJAH!!! I don't think I have ever been so freakin happy! But it still doesn't seem real.

My sister is here for my graduation. She came here from Ft. Worth yesterday. YAY! I love my sister so much. She is gonna be here for 3 weeks.

Well, I have a lot of stuff to get done so I better go! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

This is too cute!!

I feel in love with this when I found it. I just HAD to share it with all of you out there in BLOGGER WORLD!! lol...



Uh oh!! It's almost here. I took my first exam today and I made a 100% on it. I only have 2 other exams left, both of my computer classes. I take one tomorrow and then one Monday. *sniff*And then it will all be over expept for walking across that precious stage next Friday!! I'm starting to get nervous. I have this fear that I am gonna be the one person that falls as I am walking across the stage to get my diploma. lol...I tried to find some different shoes, but I found NOTHING!! Wish made me really mad b/c I looked at every shoe store within an hour radius of my house. lol...I found one pair and they fit really good until I put them on with panty hose and then they started sliding around and they really would have made me fall. So, I have to deal with my 3 inch heels that I aleady have. ACK! I don't think anyone has ever fallen on the stage, so that makes me feel better. But you never know, there always has to be a first for everything. lol...I'm gonna cry. I have spent 13 years working towards this one moment and it's almost here. All of my family will be here, I am having a party the day after for all of my friends and other "family." I also have a party this Saturday that the church is throwing for me. Then, Sunday is Senior Sunday and that is where all of the Seniors march in in their Cap and Gown and we are presented with a gift from the church. Then, after that, there is going to be a lucheon for me and the other seniors and that is where people sign my guest book and give me PRESENTS! lol...(the best part fo graduation....the CASH!!!) It still just doesn't seem real. Am I really graduating next Friday? No, it can't be posssible. I'm not 18, I'm not a Senior, I'm not about to graduate! It just doesn't seem real. And I don't think it will seem real until I start college in the fall. *tear*I guess I will end on that note.

Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

P.S. I wish my Squishy was here to see me walk across that stage. But we will get to see each other this summer when I go to Texas. *sigh*The end of June can't come soon enough! lol...

Monday, May 16, 2005


I love this scene. This is from The Notebook. I am a sucker for rain. I love to stand out in the rain and just get wet, but when I stand out in the rain and I'm being kissed by my love, it just doesn't get any better than that. And this scene just reminds me of what I want to be doing right now! Posted by Hello

Sunday, May 15, 2005

It's getting closer and closer...

Graduation is less than 2 weeks away. I have so much going on in the next 2 weeks its not even funny. I thought graduation was supposed to be a fun, happy, STRESS-FREE time. NOT!!! I guess totally wrong. I have my Senior Awards ceremony tomorrow morning at 10. This is when all of the different scholarships are persented, all of the special Senior awards are given, and when all the Seniors get to march in for the first time in Cap and Gown in front of out parents. I might be getting a scholarship tomorrow. The band that I am in is giving away a scholarship to any Senior that applied and I did. There were only 5 of us that applied, so my chances of getting are pretty good. Then, I start with exams on Wednesday through Monday. Then, between that, I have 2 party things at my church for me. I have one on Saturday that is an informal gathering of some of my friends. Then, Sunday, all the Seniors of the church wear their cap and gown and march in, give a little speech about themselves and what they plan on doing after graduation, and then after that, there is a pot-luck luchoen where people get to give ME gifts! lol...I like that part of the day. And sometime this week, I have to get my sister and her kids from a place 2 hours from here. ACK! I can't wait to see her, but DANG! I didn't expect to have to go get her. lol...Oh, well, her husband can't help his job situation.

Then, on top of ALL of that, I have to find some time to do my Shakespeareian project and plan my graduation party for the day after graduation. I can't wait til it's all over so I can just stop and breathe. It seems like I haven't been able to breathe for the past 2 months...and I still have 2 weeks before I can. ACK!

And my dad isn't helping matters any. He is really unhappy with his job right now and he is in a reall crappy mood and when he's in a crappy mood, so is everyone else. He's trying to look for another job, but he just doesn't know what he want to do. I think that if he were to just "shut up" for just 5 seconds and listen to God, then he would know exactly what to do. Whenever I don't know what I need to do, I just take 5 seconds (not literally) to breathe and listen to what God is telling me to do. I know that is so much easier to say than do, but GEEZ! I just wish he would stop being such a grumpy butt. He is saying one thing and acting another. He says that he wants to spend more time with me and mom, but he's not. For the past week or so, when I get home, he's not here, he's gone with mom riding the Goldwing (Honda motocycle for those of you that didn't know that). Yes, I understand that it's nice weather for riding, but stop saying that you want a different job b/c you want to spend more time with me, and then when you are home, you act like I'm not even around. He is leaving again for 2 months June 15 or so. That means that he won't even be home for 2 months. Well, since he's not going to be home for very long, he should be spending time with me like he says he wants to. He acts like he wants me out of the house...NOW!!! I know that isn't true, but he's just not acting normal. Mom says that is just a combination of me graduating and his job...but I need for them to be here for me, not the other way around right now. And I can't talk to mom about it, well, I can, but I don't want to worry her anymore than Dad is already doing. She has even came to me and talked to me about some of the things that dad is thinking about doing with his career, and she usually doesn't do that. I'm here for her and she knows that, and she there for me, but I just don't want to dump all of this on my mom right now. It's bad enough that her baby girl is about to graduate, but then all the crap with dad. I just can't do that to her.

Well, I think I have sufficiently vented for the moment. I will probably be back on later to continue b/c I am no where near being finished with this. lol...I haven't gotten to what he thinks about my college situation. Tootles

*~*God Bless*~*

P.S. Please keep my family in your prayers, we really need it right now. Thank you!

Friday, May 13, 2005

*cries*

Wow...it's almost here...graduation is only 2 weeks away. I'm starting to get really nervous about my grades. I know I shouldn't worry as much as I do, but I just can't help it. That is one thing that I really need to work on before I start college.

OMG!! I just found out yesterday that my sister go me a ticket to go to Texas this summer as my graduation present. YAY!! I thought that I wasn't going to be able to go and mom and dad told me that I need to figure out date so I can let Leigh Ann know when to get the ticket for! YAY!! *does a lil happy dance* And I get to go to Billy Bob's with out mom having to sign this stupid consent form for me to get in. But now that I'm 18, I can get in on my own! I could have tried to get in some other ways, but I didn't wanna get into any trouble, at least not then. hehe...

I have such a busy day tomorrow! ACK! First, I have a car wash that I have to be at at 8:45 a.m., then I have my band picnic/awards thing, then I have to go shopping for a swimsuit, and THEN I have to go shopping for some new shoes for graduation. We had our cap and gown pictures made and my feet are still hurting from being those dumb shoes for so long. lol...I gotta find some comfy ones. I have looked around for so long for a swim suit and shoes that I'm almost tired of shopping. Notice that I said "ALMOST", but I can never be completely tired of shopping. lol..

Well, I need to go b/c I need some sleep! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Thursday, May 12, 2005

I got my grade yesterday...

For those of you that have been sitting on the edge of your seats awaiting my grade for my project....the time had come....I made a 96%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is a freakin' A+!! Can you believe it?? All that hard work and busting my butt trying to get it all done finally worked. My English teacher had to throw out one my judges grades b/c she was really mean and too harsh. I had a 99%, a 93%, then that dumb judge gave me an 84%!!! That is 2 letter grades below the others. So when something like that happens, that grade is thrown out. I am so surprised, though, that I made what I did. I was supposed to have 8 to 10 of speech time, but I only had 7:24 and they are supposed to take off 10 points for that and they didn't!! They must have really liked me! lol... That has been a HUGE relief off my shoulders. That means that I only have to make a 55% on my last 9-weeks grade. Of course I am going to try to make better than that, but I'm not under as much stress as I was. I'm eating again, I'm finally starting to sleep a lil bit, and I'm actually happy again. lol.... It's been awhile since I've been happy.

I have my big Senior breakfast tomorrow. That is the one that the parents put together and the parents are allowed to go to. Then after the breakfast, we go take Cap and Gown pictures as a group, then individually if we want. After we take those pictures, we practice for Awards Day. Awards Day is Monday and that when scholorships are awarded, special awards are given out, and people are recognized. Then, exams start next Wednesday. I can't believe that it is almost over. I'm going to cry my eyes out at graduation. Don't get me wrong, I'm ready for the next road to travel down in my life, but it's just going to be hard to say goodbye this road that I have been on for so long. I have another speech to do on Tuesday and we are supposed to do a reflective speech. We are supposed to pick 3 moments in our life that we cherish, ones that have changed us forever, or ones that we have learned from. That is going to be a really hard speech to do b/c most of us in that class are Seniors and we are picking things that are funny or get you thinking, or just simple things. I'm going to end up crying when I give mine b/c it is really going to be personal, but the truth.

Well, I need to go work on my announcements...they are supposed to go out tomorrow! lol... Tootles!!

*~*God Bless*~*

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

*falls over on the floor*

OMG!! Oh, my freakin gosh!! It's over!! Well, for the most part. I present my big, huge senior project today. What a freakin relief. I was supposed to have 8 to 10 minutes of talk time, but I didn't quite make it, I was 22 seconds short. But one of the guys in charge of the judges said that sometimes the judges will waive 15 to 20 seconds. *phew* I'm hoping that it happens that way. I find out tomorrow what I actually made. Then, after we find out what we mad on our presentations, we will do some math figuring so we know what we need to make on our last 9 weeks grade to pass English to graduate. I'm really nervous about that part. I don't know what my grade is right now, I know it's in the 50-60 range, but I need to know NOW!!! lol...

Well, I'm talking to my SQUISHY!! *claps* YAY!! Tootles!!

*~*God Bless*~*

Monday, May 09, 2005

Look at MEEEEEEEE.....


I know, I know....I'm going crazy with pictures, but it has taken me about year to get my pictures on here, so you just have to deal with it for a while. hehe....This is me during spring break about a month ago. Posted by Hello

Ahhh....Paradise!


I wanna be in that hammack with my SQUISHY. That would be perfect. Just enough room for us and no one else. Posted by Hello

I wanna be sittin right there RIGHT NOW!!!


This is Bora Bora at sunset. Isn't it so beautiful? This place is so breath taking. I didn't know that paradise really existed here on earth. Posted by Hello

Bora Bora


This is a picture of Bora Bora in Tahiti. Ahhh...paradise. That is where I want to spend my honnymoon with my future husband. Posted by Hello

Whoop, Whoop!!!


This is me at the Senior Prom about a month ago. Don't I look sexy?? Posted by Hello

Saturday, May 07, 2005

I'm so freakin tired...

I am so tired right now. lol...I stayed up til about 1 or after last night and got up at 10. I know, I know, that is more sleep than usual, but I still need more sleep.

Dad is gonna take pics of me tomorrow for my Senior pictures. We decided that paying $500 for some pictures was outragous when dad can take just as good of pics as the professional.

Well, I'm gonna try to get some sleep.

*~*God Bless*~*

Friday, May 06, 2005

*sigh*

I haven't gotten to talk to Billy today, like hear his voice, but I have talked to him thru text messages. We have talked about the most random things. lol...We have talked about what our families are like, he was talking about what he was doing at the mall, I was talking about what I was doing at the beach (I'm at the beach for the weekend. I'm celebrating my b-day), we were even talking about his tattoos. lol...He has 2 tattoos with my name on it. The first one is on his side is of a fairy sitting on a moon and under the moon is my name. He says that I am the fairy, I'm his fairy. hehe...And the other one is of our names. We do this thing that shows that we are ONE. We usually put on the end of our e-mails "HOLLYLLIB". He said that he got that put on his thumb so everyone can see that we are together. I thought that that was so sweet. I wanna get his name tattooed on me. I promised myself a few months ago that if I ever get a tattoo that the first one will be a Christian symbol, like the cross, the fish symbol, or the trinity sybmol. Then I can get my Squishy's name put on me. I have to wait a lil while, though. My parents told me that if I get a tattoo before I get out of college, then they will stop paying for my schooling. So, I guess I gotta wait til I get out of college unless I get it somewhere that I can hide it. lol...Wonder where that would be?

Well, I'm gettin tired and I'm sure mom and dad are tired of hearin me typing, I type loud b/c I type so fast and I have fake nails. hehe! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*


I'm so upset with myself...

I am so freakin upset with myself. ACK! Billy and I were text messaging each other back and forth last night. Well, about 1 in the morning, I fell asleep. I felt so bad b/c we were in the middle of a converstation. I still feel bad. I just can't believe that I didn't that to my Squishy. I just hope that I didn't hurt his feelings. I dont' think I could live with myself knowing that I hurt him. He didn't seem hurt, though. He sent me a message saying that he guesses that I fell asleep and for me to have sweet dreams and he loves me and then he said that if he were here by my side that he would kiss my forehead and just watch me sleep in peace. AWWWW....how sweet. I love him so much, more than I thought a person could love another.

Well, I should go work on my web site. I'm behind a lil b/c I was out yesterday. hehe! Tootles!

*~*God Bless*~*

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

YAY!!!

Well, I got a text message from Billy last night around 1 in the morning. lol...I didn't get it until this morning b/c I didn't hear my phone beep to let me know that I had a message. He feels so bad b/c he didn't call me on my b-day. But it's not a big deal. I understand that things happen, and it's just one day out of the year, nothing real special. He said that he felt like a "fool" and that he needed a lil' more time before he talked to me b/c he felt so bad. I feel bad b/c if it weren't for my dumb birthday, then he wouldn't feel bad. But I understand where he is coming from. I think that if the situation were flipped, then I would be the same way. I love him so much. I called him and left him a voice mail this morning to tell him that I would wait on him for as long as he needs me to. I would wait on him forever. I love him always and always. I was going crazy until this morning. It had been 5 1/2 days since I had heard from him and I was going completely chaotic!! I wasn't eating, I wasn't sleeping, I wasn't happy, I was just in existance and that was it. But when I got up this morning, before I even got outta bed, I just rolled over and looked at my phone b/c something was telling me to look at it. And Billy had text messaged me!! As soon as I got through reading it, I jumped outta bed and got in the shower and got ready really quickly so I could call him and leave him a voice mail. He made my perfect. Nothing can ruin my day now. *smiles really really big*

OMG!! I figured out how to link people on my blogger!! Who's the genius? I am the genius! lol...It has taken me so long to figure it out. My computer class has really helped me. We are learning HTML and I know enough now to link things. YAY!!!

Well, I need to go work on my web site! Tootles!!

*~*God Bless*~*

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

*happy sigh*

I'm happy, almost! lol...As most of you know, I haven't heard from Billy since Thursday. Well, I tried calling his cell last night hoping that he got it back. AND HE HAS HIS CELL BACK!! I didn't get to talk to him, but his roommate b/c he was at work. But I am gonna call him when I go on my lunch break and then when I get out of school. YAY! I am so happy. The reason I hadn't gotten any e-mails from him is b/c his e-mail got disconnected. But that is ok, as long as he has his cell phone and I can call him and talk to him. *smiles really really big*

Well, I need to go to my next class! Tata!!

*~*Gob Bless*~*

Sunday, May 01, 2005

HEHE!!

I'm learning HTML in one of my comuter classes and it has really facinated me for some reason. So, you might notice some lil' things are different. For example, the lil' scrolling marquee on the previous post, as well as the numbering! LOL!! It's so amazing how the simplest, yet so complicated, things facinate so much! HEHE!!

*~*God Bless*~*

These are so CUTE!!!

I found these lyin around in my room and thought that you guys out there would enjoy them as much as I did!!

  1. Don't let your worries get the best of you, remember, Moses started out as a basket case.

  2. Some people are kind, polite, and sweet-spirited - until you try to sit in their pews.

  3. Many folks want to serve God, but only as advisors.

  4. It is easier to preach ten sermons than it is live one.

  5. The good Lord did'nt create anything without purpose, but mosquitos come really close.

  6. When you get to your wit's end, you'll find God lives there.

  7. People are funny, they want the front of the bus, the middle of the road, and the back of the church.

  8. Opportunity may knock once, but temptation leans on the bell.

  9. Quit griping about your church; if it was perfect, you couldn't belong.

  10. The phrase that is guaranteed to wake up an audience: "And in conclusion..."

  11. If the church wants abetter pastor, it only needs to pray for the one it has.

  12. God Himself does not propose to judge a nam until he dead. So why should you?

  13. To make a long story short, don't tell it.

  14. Some minds are like concrete, thoroughly mixed up and permanently set.

  15. Peace starts with a smile.

  16. I don't know why some people change churches; what difference does it make which one you stay home from?

  17. A lot of church members who are singing "Standing on the Promises" are just sitting on the premises.

  18. We are called to be witnesses, not lawyers or judges.

  19. Outside of traffice, there is nothing that holds this counrty back as much as committees.

  20. Be ye fishers of men. You catch them - He'll clean them.

  21. Coincidence is when God chooses to remain anonymous.

  22. Don't put aquestion mark where God puts a period.

  23. Don't wait for strong men to take you to church.

  24. Forbidden fruits create many jams.

  25. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

  26. God grades on the cross, no the curve.

  27. God loes everyone, but porbably prefers "fruits of the spitit" over "religious nuts!"

  28. God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.

  29. He who angers you, controls you!

  30. If God is your Co-pilot - swap seats!

  31. Prayer: Don't give God instructions -- just report for duty.

  32. The task ahead of us is never as great as the Power behind us.

  33. The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.

  34. We don't change the message, the message changes us.

  35. You can tell how big a person is by what it takes to discourage him.

  36. The best mathematical equation I have ever seen:
    1 Cross + 2 Nails = 4 Given

Hope you enjoy!!!

*sigh*

I haven't heard from my Squishy since Thursday and it's Sunday now. I'm starting to get really worried that something happened to him. I just hope that everything is ok with him. I'm just so worried right now.

Well, my brother and sister came over yesterday. We went out to eat and then they came back to the house and we just chilled. lol...Kristie is pregnant and she is starting to show. It's funny...I can hardly believe that my brother is gonna be a father. ACK!! I'm gettin old...lol...

I went to church this morning. It was pretty good. Josh, my pastor, was pretty wound up. He sure did get his message across. I was supposed to have Praise Team Practice, but we didn't. Casie, one of the girls in it, couldn't go and Josh said that he couldn't make it. So, I cancelled it b/c the last time that I tried to handle them on my own, it was a disaster. They just didn't respect me and we didn't get anything done. We were supposed to debut next Sunday night, but since we haven't practiced in 3 weeks, that might not happen.

I had a very interesting converstion with one of my fellow band members yesterday. We have thing called "fair share" where everyone in band is required to pay a certain amount of money, whether it's raised though fundraisers or you just pay out of pocket. Well, there is this one guy that hasn't paid his fairshare since he's been in high school. And it's not like it's a lot of money to pay. For one year, it's about $300, but we have fundraisers to help us get this money in and we have plenty of notice to get the money. Well, he has never even paid half of his fair share in the 4 years of high school. Our county has passed a new law that states that band organizations canNOT charge fair share fees. That means that if someone had been lacking the whole year and not paid one penny, they definatley don't have to now b/c of the new Act that they have passed. Well, this guy, Derek, owed over $100 for just this year, which he never paid for the other years and I know this b/c my mom was the treasurer for the band.

Yesterday I told him that is wasn't right for all of that did pay our fairshare and busted our butts trying to do so. He came back at me and said," Yes it is b/c I have done a lot for the band, I am doing a lot for the band, and I will continue to do a lot for the band." Oh, that made me so mad!! I have worked just as hard as he has, if not harder b/c of my physical conditions. I have a bad ankle, a bad knee, and a bad back, so I go out there on that field and bust my butt and work and work for that band. But I still paid my fair share.

I owe $19.43. I told mom yesterday that if Derek wasn't gonna have to pay his, then I wasn't gonna pay mine. But the more and more that I have thought about it, I don't want to lower myself to his standards. When I agreed to stay in the band this year, that was like signing a contract saying that I would pay my fair share, and I don't like to go back on my word. So, I am going to do the Christian thing and pay my $19.43.

I know that said some things that I shouldn't have, but when anger gets you, it's hard to control that lil' devil sitting on your shoulder. I'm not trying to make an excuss, don't get me wrong, but it's so hard to resist temptation. I just wish that when that lil' devil is sitting on my shoulder, I would just look at the other shoulder and see that Jesus is right there for me. He is always there for me.

I haven't been doing like I should lately. It's not like I have been going out partying and getting drunk or having PMS (pre-marital sex), but just in my actions. What I say, how I say it, or just how I look on my face sometimes. It's just hard to live in the world today and not be tempted or just be "mean." I have to constantly work on not being too negative. I am so pessimestic sometimes that I even hate myself. That is one thing that the devil trys to get me down with, pessimism.

Well, I think I have sufficiently bored you, to whoever is reading this. lol...Toodles!

*~*God Bless*~*

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