The Good Ol' Days
I miss the good ol' days when everything was simple. And the hardest decision was when you had to decide between what CD you wanted, or what you were going to wear to school, or what friend you were gonna go hang out with on the weekend, or if you wanted gummy bears or skittles....Then, love gets involved and things aren't simple anymore....You don't care if you get The All American Rejects or Carrie Underwood CD, you don't care if you wear a dress or jeans and a t-shirt, you don't care if you are gonna hang out with La or Andy, or if you want skittles or gummy bears....All you care about is making the right decision that won't mess up your life.
You want him back, you are so scared that you will hurt him again. You don't even know if he even still cares that you are alive, much less still love you. You don't care if he's with another girl, as long as he's happy and she treats him better than you did.
You want to get back with him, but you are with someone else right now that could seriously go somewhere...And you don't wanna hurt him like you hurt the other guy....
You think you are over him, but then one lil dream one night out of the blue goes and fucks everything up...It gets you thinking about the amazing times you had together...Like when you would go to the mall with him and pick out things you were going to decorate your house with, times when you decided what you were going to name you first girl (Piper Marie) and you first boy (David Jess) and you had a lil fight over the names and you came to the conclusion that you were going to have more than one girl and one boy...You remember the times when you would go up to Beer Rock and look out over the lake and look at the stars and smoke....You remember going up to the dam and laying out at the overlook spot and looking up at the stars and talking about nothing, but say everything...Or the time you were at his house right before Christmas and shared old family stories and learned that his family is so amazing, yet wacko at the same time....Or the time that you first told him that you loved him and he didn't say anything back, but you could hear his heart say it back....Or the times that you would have to leave for a few weeks and how you would cry and cry until he told you that it was ok.
You want it all back, but then again, you don't....Because you don't deserve it...You had it once and you ruined it....You threw it all away....It's all your fault and you don't deserve to find that kind of love again....
I guess it's true what they say..Love isn't enough....But why? Why can't it be enough?
You always think you are over him, but you know deep down in your heart and soul you will never be over and you won't be the same after that....
posted by *~*HollyMarie*~* @ 12:31 PM
3 Comments:
hi holly..juz dropping by to say hello..
hey..where are you????
hollymarie...where are you....
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