I want a boy.
A nice and bad boy.
A boy who lets me play with his hair!
He'll tell me we're likeCoreyandTopanga.
-He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt.
-He'll call me at 3am and ask me what i'm doing-
He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice.
**He'll text me every morning before school saying "Have a great day babe I love you!".**
And he always whispers something sweet in my ear.
He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band.
And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.
When I cry he'll tell me I'm too beautiful to and he'll kiss every tear.
*~He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me~*
All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them.
*He'll stay up with me all night when im sick*
When we're walking together he'll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear.
He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect.
We always end up laughing about silly fights.
.We wont get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it.
Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me ... Every time he kisses me.
*He'll tell me he'd die without me*
He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day
*He would think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy*
When we go out for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose¦then I'll put some all over his face.
And we just never stop laughing.
*he wouldn't be scared to cry in front of me*
--and would hold me when i cry--
.he'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he's ever met.
We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far wecould jump off a swing.
He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch
~snowflakes~ on our tongues
.And we'd always take pictures in photo booths.
.He'll let me go places with his mom.
.We would play tag and not care whos watching..:
*We'd kiss in the rain*:.
And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again.
I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me,and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize.
.I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars.
-Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house-
*I want someone to be there no matter what.. always and forever *
Perfect.
I'll be his everything..
And he'll be even more to me.
*He will love me for always*
There is someone out there that I feel this way about and I hope and pray that he feels the same way. I love you more than you could ever imagine!!!!!!!! *you know who you are*
*~*God Bless*~*
When will there be peace?
I have had such a horrible past couple of days....So much going on that I don't know if I can handle it...
I found out that Dad is probably just going to stay with ACL and not move jobs....which is good...I just wish he would stop yo-yoing back and forth...
I have also found out that my aunt lied to the one person that I love and then tried to cover it up. I know that I made the mistake of getting in the middle, but I was put in the middle. I didn't ask to know that she was looking for a new job...I just hate the position that I have put into...
Please keep me in your prayers, for thoses of you that pray...Thank you so much!
*~*God Bless*~*
Life Sucks...
Well, I talked to the lady that used to babysit for, and she wanted to know how much I wanted paid so she can keep me. I can't live off the money that she paid me last year, just not enough with the way gas prices are. So, I have to call her tomorrow so I can tell her that I want $60 a week and ask her when exactly she wants me to work.
I also talked to mom today....she has to go back to work. UGH! That means that I am gonna have to try to make more money than expected, which sucks b/c I was wanting to get used to college and then get a job, but no, dad had to go take a new job with a HUGE paycut. If I had known that he was gonna be taking a new job and mom had to go to work, I would have gone to school at UVA-Wise.
Well, I'm gonna drown my sorrows now....Leave me some love!
*~*God Bless*~*
Blah....
I'm so freaking frustrate right now...I found out that my aunt talked to the new band director and he really, REALLY needs our help. He has never done a marching band before. The only thing that he has ever done was a parade and that was it. So, he still wants my help and he still wants me to write drill.
Ok, here I was worry free about the drill and now I have to get back into that mindset...which usually takes about 2 days to do. I thought that they drill was gonna be thrown out, and I'm glad that it's not, but I just hate that I got out of that mind set.
I called Stacey to let him know last night that the new guy wanted my help and for us to write drill, but I got his voicemail, so I just left him a message. I just hope that he isn't too pissed off at Aunt Tinker to help me b/c I'm the one that needs help, not her. So, I might call Stace later on tonight.
Well, I'm gonna go see if Leigh Ann needs help packing!
*~*God Bless*~*
Well....
Hmmm.....things suck right now. I have decided to go to college where my 'rents live. I really don't want to go there and leave all my REAL friends in Virginia, but my 'rents really didn't give me any choice. I am gonna go to the local community college for at least a semester and figure out what I really wanna do.
Dad has decided to start a new job. UGH! I am not happy. This means that I am going to have to work more than I thought. I know that they are gonna help me with stuff, but geez...they asked me to stay home and now I'm rethinking the decision that I have made. I need to call Shannon to see how much she is willing to pay me since mom and dad won't have money like they had.
Well, I'm gonna go...*~*God Bless*~*
It's over!!!
I no longer have a job. YAY! I'm so happy. Today was my last day working. I went to Kentucky to see Beauty and the Beast performed. The teachers and aids took the lil' kids to see it.
Last night was the last night the all the cast members were together. The show was at 7 and it ended around 9:30 or 10, but I didn't leave the school until 1 or so. The show went so much better than I thought it was going to. The dress rehearsal went so bad that I knew for sure that the actual show was gonna suck, but it was great. The planning with this so bad, though. This is a professional show and it was performed by kids ranging in age from 5 to 17. To give you an example of how extravagant this show really should be, I will explain what the one was like that I saw tonight. I went to an outdoor theatre and the people that performed in this play have performed all over the country and are professionals, like they could be on Broadway if they wanted to be. And the version of Beauty and the Beast that they put on was the EXACT same as we put on. These were adults tonight performing and we had CHILDREN performing this play.
Don't get me wrong, these kids did a fantabulous job, but it was just so stressful to try to get a Broadway production put together in 4 weeks with lil' kids.
The one thing that I can say that I liked a lot better about our play that we did compared to the one that we saw tonight was out set. Our set is the best set that I have ever seen used for a production of this sort. Even an outdoor theatre usually doesn't use this kind of set. Our set was better than the one from the outdoor theatre that we went to.
I know that I have complained a lot about this job, but there are some people that I am really really gonna miss. I am gonna miss Mrs. Flannary, Mrs. Flemming, Tracy, Shane, Makayla, LeighAnn, and Samantha. And there are some of the kids that I am going to miss, too.
But even though I am going to miss all of those people, I don't know if I would do it again next year. The planning was so horrendous this year that I doubt that it will be better next year. I say that b/c some of the teachers that did it last year said that it wasn't as chaotic as it was this year. But maybe they really learned their lesson.
I have to get up at 9:30 in the morning to go to church one last time before I leave. It will be 3 weeks before I get to come back. I have to get up and go to church, then come home and finish laundry and then start packing, which has to be complete tomorrow b/c I am leaving early on Monday so I will get home at a decent hour. Then, after I pack, I have to write some drill b/c Stacey is coming over here at 7, maybe earlier if I call and ask him to come earlier.
I really really dread packing tomorrow. If I could just magically twinkle my nose like Samantha off of Bewitched and all my close be in a bag, that would be great, but that is never gonna happen....unless I twinkle my nose really really slowly as I pack my clothes. hehe! I have about 3 bags worth of clothes, but i only have 1 bag for clothes. Then I have a bag for shoes and then a bag for all my other junk that isn't clothes or shoes.
Then, as soon as I get home, I have to unpack to repack for Texas. And in the process of that, I have to start packing my stuff so I can move here. UGH! I HATE PACKING! Oh, and get this. I am going to Texas to help my sister PACK so she can move to Kansas City. More packing! Great fun! NOT!!
Well, it's 4:32 am and I should be in bed. So, I'm gonna head that way. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers while I go through this tough and stressful time. Leave me some love!*~*God Bless*~*
Wow...
Wow, I have been so busy for the past 3 days...and I am only gonna be busier for the next week. I am sitting here watching "Coyote Ugly" and it feels really good to just sit here, but I know I shouldn't be. I should be writing drill or re-writing parts or transposing or something besides just sitting here.
Today went really really good. We got a lot of work done, more than I thougiht would get done. I taught them how to march differently. I also taught them how to do the tondue step, how to go backwards in the new style, a lateral, and a stop-n-go. They didn't get a lot done with music, but they did make some real progress over the past 3 days. I just hope that they actually look at the music between now and band camp.
Stacey and I have written almost all of the first set of drill. We have about 8 pages. Then, when I go to Texas, I have to write one set of drill and Stacey is gonna write the other set. I just need to make sure that my aunt marks off the phrases for me before I go home.
It is almost official, I am paying my deposit for UVA-W on Monday before I go home. I'm so scared. I am just scared how mom and dad are gonna take the news. I have to tell them that I am going to UVA-W and then I have to ask them to co-sign on students loans for me.
Well, I should go to bed. I have a big day tomorrow. The lil' kids perform their play tomorrow night.
*~*God Bless*~*
*screams at the top of her lungs*
Well, marching camp started tonight. It didn't go as anticipated. It wasn't that it was bad, but it wasn't the greatest.
My first order of business what to work on music and we didn't even get through 5 measures. And for those of you that don't what a measure is, to make it simple, there were about 62 measures in the piece that I was working with them on.
But they did a lot better on the marching that I thought they would. We did forward marching, lateral marching, and the tondue step. And then I worked with the battery on crabbing.
I just feel like I'm so ahead of them that I'm not good enough for them. I couldn't really work with them on music b/c I'm not down on their level. I am used to playing real music, real licks that real musicians have played and then I'm thrown in to teach some middle schoolers some tunes that are so easy for me, but are way to hard for them.
I just feel inadequite for them. It's not that I think I'm not good enough really, or too good. I'm just on a completely different level than they are on.
Stacey is coming here tomorrow........at 8:30....in the MORNING!!! We are gonna work on drill and then choreograph his salute out, at least try.
I just feel like crying for so many different reasons right now...there isn't one particular thing that makes me wanna cry, just everything combined on top of me. I feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Welp, I am gonna go try to find something to eat...maybe.
*~*God Bless*~*
I've discovered something new!!
My aunt told me this afternoon that some of my mom's beef and sausage nacho cheese. Well, I went to the store and I got the stuff to make it. When I got home, I fixed it. I have never cooked anything like that before. I'm quite proud of myself.
I have always liked cooking, I have just have always hated the fact that it usually involves raw meat. But I actually cooked that sausage. I'm quite proud of myself.
I think that I have found my new love.....cooking!
Well, I'm off to watch Smallville on DVD!*~*God Bless*~*
I'm C-R-A-Z-Y!!!
Well, I just spilled EVERYTHING out to La. While we were walking, we were talking about guys and I said some stuff that really shouldn't have been said out loud. So, I let it ALL out. I talked about Stacey, mostly. I keep falling harder and harder and we aren't even "together."
Me and La talked about the whole break up thing. She told me that her best advice is to just leave the whole break up in the past and not ask any questions. And I think that that is what I am going to do. I honestly don't care about it as long as we work out something now. La also told me that he prolly would be ok as long as we don't call it "dating" and I told her that I would be ok if he would just come out and tell me that. But that prolly would just make him realize that it is dating and it's just messed up. I just don't know what to do anymore.
And about the rest of my life, all I have to say is that there is either too many or not enough. I will just leave it at that.
I just read an away message from one of my friends. I really really like it. "Try so hard and you'll only fall harder. What comes the best, comes naturally." I like that, it's ALMOST true, but not completely.
*~*God Bless*~*
Madness!!
I'm so mad at myself right now. I am in charge of writing the drill for my aunt's band. Ok, not a big deal, right? NOT!! I stayed up until about 3 last night and I only got about 3 pages of drill written. Well, then I have spent ALL DAY today working on it as well and I have about5 pages total so far. An average show has about 30 pages. I am seeing A LOT of things with this music, but I just can't do any of it b/c the numbers are so small. It's horrid. I have about 25...TOTAL!! That is including guard, hornline, AND drumline. It's so ridiculous. I know that the numbers aren't the worst out there, but they sure aren't the best. I just wish that I had more experiene with writing drill that way I could actually put my ideas on paper, and make it work. I have so many ideas, but it's just that what I'm seeing takes at least 30 people, and I don't have 30 people.
Enough about that. My days are getting a lil' bit better, but not much though. Things with Stacey are getting better, in my opinion. We are talking daily, but it's still so hard for me to be around him and act happy, unless I just imagine that things are like they used to be. I just miss the nights that we spent talking or the nights that we spent watching movies until 2 in the morning and talking, or the night that we watched "Me and Will" ( hehe...a moment that Stacey and I will NEER forget). I just want to lay in his arms and have him hold me. I just wish I knew what I did wrong that way I know not to do it again and fix it. I guess I just wish, most of all, that things would go back to the way that they used to be.
Well, I'm beat. I have drill to write and things to think about, plus my fav cuz, La, just walked in the door from work.
*~*God Bless*~*
Graduation Is Almost Here!!!
